Broken

I'm broken
I stood by your side
helped even when I shouldn't
but truth be told
by the end of it
I was pushed aside
as if I was a piece of shit
I figured years of friendship
counted for something
I did as you pleased
happy as long as you are were happy
And where did it get me
Friendless
as if part of me is missing
ignored abandoned and blue
why is it I stood up for you
but when I needed you
you were gone
No rhyme no reason

Used

I traveled to help
just to be ignored
I felt like furniture
used and abused

I didn't want to leave
half my soul stayed behind
Bound to my friend
and her beautiful children

Months later
my soul is shattered
removed from my friends life
like unwanted fat

no explanations
no satisfaction
everything is fake
and I'm still use

Assumptions in the wind

Assumptions made in the wind 
scatter wherever they wish
no one makes sure they are true
instead they believe the lies

they are told
whispers I hear
of a repeated past
exactly the same
as the one just committed
hands laid on you
while others watched
is this really the life you wanted

no happiness just emptiness
you fake that like a pro
only you told me the truth
that you'd rather live a lie
because it's easier

well little girl
life ain't easy
life will repeat the same mistakes
till you learn from them
when it happens again
who will be beside you
as family turns on you
not me I learned my lesson

I shall never pick my friends side again
never stand behind someone
because let's be honest
I never get it in return

Dream

You came in the dream
I said you can't be real
that you were gone
but I could smell you
I reached out to touch you
you felt so real
you were okay
you didn't speak
but I can hear you
deep in my heart
I miss you
I'll love you always
don't cry
I'm okay
I'm with God
you'll see me someday
with that you were gone
hours later I woke up
the warmth of your spirit
still lingers with me

My hero

My hero rode bulls
He showed me hard work paid off
My hero told me hard truths
He tried to get me to see
he was no hero
he was just an ordinary man
Who had faults like the rest of us
my heart told me he was my hero
no matter what happens
years went by my hero got older
he no longer rode bulls
He grew sick and pain
then one day God gave my hero wings my hero is an angel
watching over all of us

Crazy nook drawings parts 2

Big eyed chick in a fake ass start night.

And lastly a few words.

Been super crazy busy. Meh. So I leave you with a new installment called crazy nook drawings. Blogging from my phone sucks so ya may need to resize it. :P